I Climb the Hills

I moved west to the very edge

The ocean pulled me with the tide

And I feel at home and sheltered here

With the mountains rising on one side

Yet there is still a space within

As wide as that flat prairie

So I go back from time to time

But not from fall to February

When I miss the snow, I climb the hills

Past the treeline to the sky

And as I’m sliding down again

I feel like I could fly

I once thought everyone felt the same

That they envied me for moving here

You disabused my misconceptions

The things I love, you don’t hold dear

You left , believing I would follow

I just laughed and shook my head

Still, I wished and dreamed
That you'd stayed here with me instead

When I miss you, I climb the hills

Past the treeline to the sky

And as I’m sliding down again

No one can see me if I cry

Like everyone out there

I miss what I have loved and lost

But I’ve learned not to dwell

On my grief, my pain, my loss

Instead I count my blessings

Abundant as the autumn leaves

Though I don’t go to church on Sunday

That message is still what I believe

When I want to pray, I climb the hills

Past the treeline to the sky

And as I’m sliding down again

I feel like I could fly

Long Way from Hone

 

I thought I was prepared

But I didn’t factor in

the bitter, wicked wind

Blowing me off course

Away from my roots of rocks and gorse

To a turbulent river

And a cold that made me shake and shiver

Still I didn’t realize, until I had capsized

That I was a long, long way from home

My limbs, frozen like cement, fought the elements

Trying to find a way, to get through night and day

While my twisted, addled mind

Fought the nightmares it would find

Trying to justify all the reasons why

I followed blind ambition

Which led to this lonely condition

And a long, long way from home

What did I think I’d find

By leaving loved ones far behind?

Setting aside belief; causing so much grief

Now all I want is to apologize
For the foolish things I’d fantasied

What I had to gain--

So small, compared to all the pain

And I’m still, a long, long way from home

My go-to Fantasy

Gazing at the winter heather

In the cold November weather

Reminds me, we aren’t meant to be together

But you will always be

My go-to fantasy

In the moments before I sleep

I sift through my memories deep

Savoring those of you I’ll always keep

And in the morning when I rise

Tears glistening in my eyes

From a dream of you; I realize

You will always be

My go-to fantasy

Love and life is hard

And if I let down my guard

I’d run to you

I’d run to you

Not even knowing what you’d do

I’d run to you

You will always be

My go-to fantasy

Yesterday as I drove

Through construction on the road

Feeling wayward and bold

I started checking out the men

But I wasn’t seeing them

Only you, my mind saw only you

You will always be

My go-to fantasy

So many times

I find you on my mind

As I’m thinking of

You and me and love

And although we aren’t meant to be

You will always be
My go-to fantasy