Why I said 'I love you'

I said “I love you”

Because when I lay with you

I was overflowing

With an emotion I didn’t recognize...

Pondering in the quiet, secret hollows

Of my mind

As you held me tucked against your ribs

Your skin still hot, salty and rich

An epiphany: shocking, simple, pure--

A feeling I had known a long, long time ago--

 I was happy. 

There in the cocoon of the bed sheets

Bodies replete

In a private, secret place

Far from the maelstrom of real life

I had found home.

Why did you do it?

Why did you do what you do, what you did to me

I want some explanations

We’d better meet and talk about it

Over strong libations

I thought you were my friend, my friend until the end

But I was disappointed

I had you on a pedestal, you fell

No longer the anointed

You dealt me a blow; a blow that left me low

I need some explanations

I feel so down--- to lift my frown

I’m chanting feel-good incantations

I don't believe your claim, that you’re not to blame

You must think me a fool

You’ve played me and betrayed me

You broke the golden rule

You say you’ll make amends and still be friends

But this is where our friendship ends

You’ve been unjust; lost my trust

My belief in you turned to dust

You make no sense, could never recompense

For what you’ve done

I realize, damn your eyes, I never really knew you

What we had is gone, or never was

Wish I could turn back the clock ignore your knock

And never get to know you

We would go our separate ways, I’d enjoy my days

And never get to know you

How I wish, I’d never got to know you

My Gentle Friend

Au revoir my gentle friend

We both know we face the end

You came to me when life was low

Taught me much I didn’t know

It will be so hard to let you go

Though crying now, I intend

Not to focus on the end

Instead, your life I’ll celebrate

The joy and laughter you create

Your loyalty beyond debate

You taught me many simple things

To kiss and stretch when day begins

Wiggling greetings at the door

Playing and walking by the shore

Sharing treats, and so much more

You run in circles just for joy

Proudly present me with a toy
You epitomize trust and constancy

Dark eyes deeper than the sea

And you love me unconditionally

No member of the human race

Can compare or replace

Your warnings and protective care

The shining goodness you lay bare

The companionship we two share

Au revoir my gentle friend

We both know we face the end

You came to me when life was low

Loved me and helped me grow

Wish I didn't have to let you go

First Love

First Love

Went looking for my first love

To see how she’d moved on

Back in that small town

Where I once belonged

Found out she’s still single

After heartbreaks just like mine

Saw her from a distance

She still looked oh, so fine

Called her on the telephone

Her voice still mellow sweet

Asked if she remembered

Asked if we could meet

I was nervous to see her again

Trembling hands and butterflies

But my angst simply vanished

With a gaze into her eyes

We shared a meal and had a drink

We talked the whole night through

“What brought you here?” she asked

“I came hoping to find you

“I never could forget you

You’re still underneath my skin

I want to keep on seeing you

Get to know you once again

“You were my first love

But you slipped away from me

Now I want to find out
If we have a different destiny

"We’ll go slowly if you want to

We’ll go quickly if you prefer

Discover if we’re the same or different

Compared to what we were”

Went looking for my first love

Lost when life intervened

But now she is my last love

And the answer to my dreams